Foolish people do stupid things...I am one of them. I don't know what's going on with me right now...I spent the better part of my morning neglecting work and logging on to MSN... chatting with MsAngel??! I guess that must have made her day...never saw so much 'smileys' in one sentence...maybe she was surprised too? Things just led to one another...then the flirting started...now I feel awful for being that way... what have I done?? If only I could have kicked myself in the head...if only... An update on MsAngel...she's still trying to get her previous post back, since she can't seem to cope with the work ethics there, so hopefully soon her transfer back will fall through. Due to the global financial crisis, it seems that there aren't much prospects for corporate lawyers thee anymore. However she still shows that she wants me...for obvious reasons, she's made it apparent that I am still the guy for her and etc..etc..bla..bla.. well you what I mean.
I am in deep regret now...my mind is blank...I don't think i can concentrate on work now. Regret can be such a distraction...it's consuming most of my thoughts. Funny thing about 'Regret' is, it's better to regret something you haven't done...rather than regret something you have done..?! Get it? My mistake follows me like my shadow...it has no worth, I can't change the past... She used to make my world worth while...now all I see is hurt. My mind is thinking of everything we've done...yet, understand nothing between us...my memories are lost...
I am in deep regret now...my mind is blank...I don't think i can concentrate on work now. Regret can be such a distraction...it's consuming most of my thoughts. Funny thing about 'Regret' is, it's better to regret something you haven't done...rather than regret something you have done..?! Get it? My mistake follows me like my shadow...it has no worth, I can't change the past... She used to make my world worth while...now all I see is hurt. My mind is thinking of everything we've done...yet, understand nothing between us...my memories are lost...
17 comments:
Ouchhhh... This is one deep mess you're in, Angel... And it's eating you up alive @,@
Croft - i'm messed up quietly within...it doesn't show on the outside...blogging is the way my frustrations & tantrums are vented... Thanks for having your say :)
Angel,
Doesn't almost everybody do just the same exact thing? Well camouflaged, most of us are... Especially those who are just so gifted adorning their pain with beautiful mirages for the others to see and at times, find their soothing cove with those gifted ones. Blogging helps me clear up my Mind & eases up my Soul - So many things pass me by with a few of them that the Mind & Soul refuse to just let go, especially those meaningful ones so very worthy of for my lifetime reflections (", Life's reflections is what my blog is all about...
Us humans are made to survive our own individual stretch of "messes", dear... Worry not, you'll find your light of Contentment one day & live through it all...
hey hey angel...
like wonder woman said before... when angel need wonder woman, wonder woman will try her best to help angel with open arms....
:)
don't you move on? the world within the human heart is always a horrendous and torment without any calming effect at all, but unless you control your action within your head, your heart will surrender.
use your head when you face your fear, use your heart to love, don't mix these both together, If you think you're bad in this situation, you're not the only one.
True the humans are made to survive Miss. Croft, but without guidance from the man above, you're not going anywhere, excuse my harshness, I'm not the kind to stay in the dark, When you start to move, the whole world moves along with you
I assume you are a woman... Miss. Croft?
Au revoir, I'm just passing through, reading any other blog that seems interesting to me
Humans are fun don't you think?
Johan Krauser
Anonymous,
Thus why I am a contented Soul alive with what Life I have been given by the Lord above, alright (",
Thus why my blog is all about Life being too precious and beautiful to let it go to waste and rot in what the bad side of the World has to tempt with its ugliness...
My blog depicts my contented Life & I am always grateful to Him for making me a contented Soul, always appreciative of what He has allowed me to see, feel, touch, sense, hear & smell... And always in gratitude for finding myself being borrowed another day long of breaths and gratefulness everytime I learn to survive my temporary death plane called Sleep... (", Say what you feel, it would only enrich my Heart & Mind to think and smile appreciatively on what you have to give for me...
http://satire1979.blogspot.com
The above is the Canvas of my Mind & Soul, and I apologize for not being a typical blogger who blogs everyday on almost everything about my daily life... For I have the passion to blog only those memorable moments so very worthy for my lifetime's reflections to be shared generously with the World (",
Miss Croft.
And He, the Al-Mighty, will never stretch one beyond his/her capability, dear Sir... He knows of our limits, so fear not about facing the harshness of Life (",
Be as harsh as you need to be, I won't bite back, hehe... (^,
Lady Croft, you are too good with your words to play, too good, I'm guessing you're a nun? sorry but I'm trying not to be judgmental, the use of
humour, irony, exaggeration,
or ridicule to expose and
criticize people's stupidity or
vices, particularly in the
context of contemporary
politics and other topical
issues. Well.. I'm no saint either
Johan Krauser
Johan Krauser :
Point taken & heard...I know moving on is easy...I guess letting go of those feelings are hard...but thanks anyway..everyone is entitled to their opinion...all comments welcomed :)
Wonder Woman : Thats why you are my wonder woman..haha ;)
Ahh yes, those feelings, when you thought the love was true, yet destroyed in a single instant, I've been that way, lost in the darkness for awhile, but the again I started thinking, If I'm still in the dark, I won't be able to find what I was looking for in the first place, not true love, but being yourself, whats good about yourself and what you enjoy doing.
Johan Krauser
angel: thats why you are wonder woman's angel... up up and away.... :)
Dear Mr. Krauser,
No, I am no Nun or a Saint... Just another Sinner who has always felt the pinch or the slap of the Angels in sobering me up back into humility & sublimation everytime I indulge deeper into sinning than remembering Him...
Satire by name and mind, yes... But you have swayed far off the track by bringing politics into the picture for I have no interest in painting those strokes of "harsh" colours onto my gentle canvas of Life (", I am deeply sorry should my presence seems to be making the ridicule out of you, all the more smacking people of their stupidity indirectly for those are never my intention at all. As I have said earlier ago to Angel, every individual blog reader has their own unique perception of understanding & embracing the contents' of other people's Minds - and no, I cannot blame you for pointing the "negative gaze" at me... (", Perhaps it will be wise of me to step back from Angel's blog, yea?
Please do take the honour of leaving your footprints on my blog, dear Sir... (", It would be quite a memorable remembrance for me to keep in my Mind...
A bientot.
I've kissed Death before, I've touched Life with every newborn lives I get to deliver, I've fought against Death for the sake of my rescued dying Souls and I've given Life too many times by now, with God's will...
With the Touch of Revival & Breaths of Life...
I am left to stand about Life & Death - that is what I am destined to do & I am thankful for it (",
Take care always, Angel & Mr. Krauser.
Hey there just dropping by with few quotes "Life is interesting, in the end some of your greatest pains,become your greatest strength" I am not discouraged,because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward. A man either lives life as it happens to him, meets its head-on and licks it, or he turns his back on it and starts to wither away. Unless you have the power like Hiro in Heroes who can stop time/back in time/go to the future but every doing/not doing has its own consequence. Take care~
Hey ya Joe B!:) Talk about messin' up, you're not that too deep in a s*it as I'm in now, dude! ;) No worries, man! You'll get over it soon enough..
Take it from me, Joe B, ain't no mountain too high for you to climb and conquer. Just dig in there and hang loose... free-falling, if you like and let the Angels swoop you up again on top of a pedestal of higher beings, if you know what I mean.
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