It's been a while..I know...things have been fairly crazy busy for me lately, that I'm just too tired and fed up to blog my tantrums...life gets too complicated sometimes that even the simplest task can be put on hold till it's too late. I guess everyone is wondering what's been happening with me?? Well I'm home now...yes, back in Brunei...still tied down with work...another 2 more weeks and it's off again to Singapore. Don't think I'll be going to the Rihanna concert at all...why you may ask?? Firstly, the intention of going was to have a good time with Tengku S, unfortunately things are not working out between us and before going further into hurting ourselves, it was a mutual feeling for us to part our separate ways...however I'm beginning to feel the emotional scars of it all...I thought 'she' was the one...the happiness that I've been longing for...my mistake for hoping too much. I still have the tickets though...would probably give them away to a friend, I know he'll appreciate the gesture...it'll score him some brownie points with his better half...I hope.
As for Tengku S and me...it must have started about a few days ago, maybe it was wishful thinking on my part, but we kinda got to talking about where things might lead between us...and if things got serious between us, would either one of us be willing to move...it seems that both of us can't commit to any of that...leaving our family and friends. I guess that was the spark to the fire...from there...words became less and thoughts became useless... You get the picture right ?? I'm the victim of circumstance...if that's what it is really?!
