I feel....

Je suis ... solitaire mes nuits sont ... solitaire ma vie est vide, Pourquoi aime-je et non aimé par quelqu'un ? Qu'est-ce qui est je ? Mais en réalité je perds lentement mon esprit... Je souffre. Au-dessous de ce sourire ... personne ne sait la douleur et le refus que j'ai été par. Je porte un déguisement qui cache toute ma misère et douleur. Je ne peux prendre plus de ce ... chaque jour est une lutte ... ma vie est une lutte .... pourquoi m'arrive-t-il ?

Simple Pleasures....

Sometimes when we get too caught up in our daily lives, we tend to take for granted life's little simple pleasures... I for one have kinda realized this the hard way. I had to go on an unplanned trip to Batam last week, work related...so duty calls, being it was my first time there, didn't really know what to expect at all. Little did I know how under-developed and over-populated it was...my living conditions were to a bare minimum...and I meant that literally. Looking past that I can see the people who lived there...were simple and content with what they had...something a person like me couldn't live without...like a stable internet connection. Regardless of their conditions, the people there are proud of the their heritage...their way of life. Having lived among them...I 've learned that 'being humble' can go a long way no matter where you are coming from and what you are made of. Coming back to 'civilization' has taught me a great lesson, something that cannot be learned...only experienced. For that I am now grateful for life's little simple pleasures...

P/S I know that this is just jibberish...so bear with me....

Every piece of my heart....

Atozzio - Every piece of my heart

'' Love this song....''

Sorrow...

My nights are filled with loneliness...thoughts of you playing in my mind, as if you were still mine. I dream of a day I hope to see you again...But until that day comes I'll be alone...by myself I am nothing...no one. You were the only one who understood me...you understood the things I was going through...You held me, loved me, made me feel good more than I could have imagined.

Now that you've left me...The loneliness overwhelms me each time I think of you... it hurts me most to miss the smile on your face. You were the only one that kept the darkness away...You were my light...my strength...and almost my life, But now it's all gone...and I can never hope to get out of this sadness I'm in...not until you come back to hold me again... I miss you...