Why?

A mixture of thoughts & emotions consistently flow through my mind today...feeling really messed up about it. We haven't said a word to each other for a couple of days now.....far too long than usual and it's getting intensely awkward?! I guessed maybe we were too busy with our work schedules...maybe. So far it's been cold and empty stares exchanged chaotically.....hmm...does that sound right?

" I look at her..she looks at me...Whats going on? "
It's just a seemingly mindless routine I've been going through lately. It used to be so amusing, more uncanny though when two people are insync with one another while anticipating each others thoughts... but lately those feelings are non-existent.

These are my tantrums for today, yesterday and the days before....my thoughts have been messed up, mixed up...blended and served.....truly the question remains unanswered...why?

Lost Souls...

She was a nice girl,friendly,polite and often quiet around the office...maybe just your average 'girl next door' type of person. Unfortunately today was not such a good day for her....

I was about my morning ritual of unpacking stuff onto my desk, when suddenly I heard a violent scream...followed by some inconsistent table bangging...then ended with crying like no other...Yes, that nice girl I was talking about was err...'possesed' or how malays say it..'kerasukan' issit? Anyway, it was saddenning to see such a sight, and I felt so helpless, because yeah? apparently yours truly or anybody else is not well equipped to handle this sort of thing...you know? "Even heroes know when to be scared??!"

Fortunately, some quick thinking collegues sprang to action, read some verses from the quran to settle her down...it calmed her down, but not the soul within her.... After some time eventually, the lost soul inside decided it was enough 'fun' for today... by then someone had called her dad to come, he came to comfort her and bring her home to recover from the trauma....

It's sad to see this type of thing happening here in Brunei, but obviously this type of things can happen anywhere, right?! It just made me realise how vulnerable anyone is to this kinda weird situation...

Mentors, leaders...and trainers

The other day in the office...minding my own business, one of my subordinates came up to me and asked if i could help him handle a 'case' of his...since everyone was out to lunch, yours truly was only happy to obliged, yup...time to put those leadership skills in gear lah (i didn't know what i was getting myself into...had i've known...i would have turned road-runner*beep* *beep* and fled the scene....??!). Anyway...it was one of those situations that was to supposed to be "win-win"...not the case though....turned out to be ugly & depressing for both sides...

Its not easy to deal with unreasonable people whom with their uncanny 'wit' choose not to negotiate openly....they just seem to twist your words with every opportunity they get...like answer your questions with their own questions to which hve no answers??! Nasty isn't it.... well moving along, as a senior, I had to sacrifice my pride for a few minutes and not turn the negotiation into a boxing match. being 'humble' is the key word here...haha..yes, aren' we all?? ok..ok.. enough sidetracking...to show my young associate that i could keep my cool and be professional in such a heated situation...I became humble in the eyes of the fiend...hmmm...it worked?? The tiger is now a kitten...purr...purrr....? hahaha!! this kinda gained me bit of respect from the other newbies in the office, at the same time boosting my or so humble ego ;) . Brownie points anyone??

This just goes to show that we should lead our subordinates-new recruits-collegues etc...we should not actually influence them to be like us ( does this happen often in the B govt? I'm afraid so...) inturn we should actually groom them to become tomorrows leaders...bla...bla..bla...hey what if the person you helped train one day became the CEO of a multi-level corporation.... you could look back from your rocking chair and say...." yeah...he was one of mine.....I trained 'em..." *sigh*


my ramblings for today....mindboggling..aint it??!