Time is free, but its priceless. You can't own it, but you can use it. You can't keep it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it, you can never get it back. Its been sometime again, I mean since my last post back in August 2013. And I find it rather uncanny that I'm writing this in 'August' 2016 as well..3 years on . ~WTH?! Anyway, I'm sure whoever reads this or wonders the 'where-what-why & how' of what has happened in the last 3 years of my absence from this blog, well life happened and of course work happened..alot!
Where have I been keeping myself all this time? Well I've been around, Most of Asia and the UK mainly. Work commitments have kept me occupied hoping across the continents, however I have managed to settle down to a 'home' in the Abode of Peace in between my travels. My own home, built after the last episode in my previous life. Its not a big luxury mansion, but its comfortable, a place I can call my own..my sanctuary, my prison, my escape, my retreat from the outside world.
What have I been up to? Now..That's a tough one, where should I start with this..?? After moving on in 2013, Life was good as it could be, living the single life again and having not to worry about anyone else but one self. I committed myself to my work and alhamdullilah, a blessing in disguise, I got promoted to a post I wouldn't have dream of getting..though it did require more responsibility and err..sacrifices?! I was determined to work hard to earn my keep, the added income would suffice my financial commitment at that time when I was building my home. I'm proud to say now that I've built my own home with my hard work and didn't end up having a financial burden. I may not have much saved, but having your own home, your own roof over your head without the worries of it being repossessed by the bank is something that make me sleep soundly at night. I'm sure some people can relate to this right? Ok, between work and construction of home, I discovered my love or rather my distraction..I started exercising to keep in shape, and I mean really in shape by running marathons, cross fit, martial arts, day & night gym sessions, trail runs and clean eating. To sum it up, I did whatever it was to break a sweat. I felt better, more healthy and my sanity was in check. I found an outlet for the pressures of my life, wish I could have found it earlier..it would have helped in the past. And the by-product of that you may wonder? I lost heaps of weight and probably help rewind my age a couple of years. You see, after the divorce settled, I opted to stay out of the social media..meaning no selfies or photos of yours truly posted on Facebook, Instagram etc..I guess because at that time, being a divorcee I was embarrassed at the disappointment I was to other family members, you know, I mean Aunts/Uncles/Cousins etc.. bcos coming from a traditional family, elders always compare themselves with the younger generation on how marriage is an institution and not something that you would throw away so easily by getting a divorce. They kept saying it was the easy way out, and it should have been 'fixable' . Out of respect for my elders for being too opinionated , I just choose to stay away from the limelight, didn't go to any family gatherings or weddings and even skipped town for Hari Raya itself too. Work commitments abroad was often an excuse I used religiously at that time, in fact with a high success rate. Through it all , I'm thankful and blessed to have parents and siblings whom understood and defended my actions. Family always has your back! regardless.. ~Back to what I was saying.. fast forward a year, other family members didn't even recognise me out in the open. I felt invisible almost, Walked past an aunt and uncle at the supermarket and they didn't even look twice or notice me beside them at the cashier?! Safe to say, and it being unintentional, I changed physically to a point where I didn't even look like my previous self. Impressed? Yes I was!! It was an accomplishment indeed. A natural camouflage you might say?! I dunno, I just enjoyed the moment..
Should I continue? Perhaps in my next post, its not easy to sum up one's life in the past 3 years, good and bad things have happened and writing about it brings back the unwanted memories you may say. Anyway, I shall leave you with this for now.. " When you're happy you enjoy the music, When you're sad you understand the lyrics.."
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