Unfaithful

Rihanna ft Royalty - Unfaithful

" I love this version.... "

I wish...

I realised all the love between us was wrong, I just thought I knew it all...I was wrong then. You were not the love I was looking for...but the love I wanted all this while. Time cannot change the way I feel about you...it only make me miss you more, though my hate will always be there. Sometimes I wish that we never went our separate ways...sometimes I wish I could change the past between us...it should have never been that way...I was yours and you were mine. My feelings for you have remained the same since the day you left me...you were the love I choose to hate...I have regretted the hate for you inside me...it gives me no peace in this life...nor any pleasure in love. i used to dream of you to comfort the loneliness...it just doesn't work anymore...dreams never come through anyway...'hope' is all I have left. I miss you now regardless of where you are...should I wait for you to come back to me??

Rehab...

Rihanna - Rehab

Life can be hard & unreasonable sometimes...ok..ok..most times in my case then. Though I may not notice it...there is usually some form of silver lining somewhere??! Anyway, I'm still miserable...I was away for the weekend, promised mum that I would accompany here on a trip. All was good...sometimes we need to be away from our daily surroundings...more of an escape from our own reality...a change of scenery some might say. But the best thing for me was to get to spend time with a loved one...I had my mom all to myself...how secured I felt...like I was seven again...ahh...the memories that reminisce... It gave me an opportunity to connect with her...it seems it's been a while since we had that 'mother-son talk'...I didn't know that mum was so concerned...even though I'm all grown up now...I guess that being an only son has it's privileges eh?? I'll always cherish the good times we had and will look forward to the times we will be sharing...all my problems seem to disappear when I'm with her... Life can be almost perfect...don't you think??

You....

Ten Sharp - You

Another old song....my feelings...my words...dedicated to my love...whoever...where ever you are....

Set Adrift on Memory Bliss....

PM Dawn - Set Adrift on Memory Bliss.... an oldie...but goodie...

Silence please....

Listen to that...nothing...just the sound of raindrops outside...I can't believe how anyone can sleep through this thunderstorm...My body is tired, but my mind is wide awake...thoughts...tantrums and 'whatevers' plague my mind. Tossing and turning did not help...I'm fully awake again...I can hear the wind and raindrops crashing at my window...I feel helpless at the mercy of the weather...how I wish I wasn't alone at this point in time. It's been on my mind...was I wrong not to let MsAngel come home with me...what if I was..?? What if she did..?? A whole lot of 'what ifs ' inside this confused head of mine... A better part of me assured myself that it was good judgement that made me say it...then again the gullible side of me is regretting the decision...the conflicts within me, it's a burdening insanity...??! Layman's terms..." it's driving me nuts! ". I look at my phone...5 missed calls and a dozen texts...it's from her!!... She's playing me...teasing me...hoping to get lucky, I suppose...and she's not afraid to say it. She's hinting how excited she gets when she's alone with me...etc... I feel hopeless...I don't want to regret my actions...been there...done that...don't wanna go through it again...I want to ignore her...but the dirty messages she sends me doesn't help at all...I'm weak...I hate myself now...