Thursday 19 March 2009

Wrong....



Everything seems wrong today...everything I do even seems wrong today...what's the matter with me?? Another bad day I'm going through, enough said. Been feeling kinda low lately...my self-esteem is non-existent...can't explain it...I just feel it...it's that time that I don't need the world to look at me...I'd rather hide from everyone. To make matters worse... I'm homesick too! I don't know when I'm going home yet...I wish it were sooner...can't stand another day by myself. Another predicament I'm in...should I take up this new offer or not...my mind boggles at the very thought of living the 'singaporean' life??! Am I up to the challenge? Maybe...but being adventurous is another issue...another dilemma to add to my list of woes.
I don't feel right at the moment...maybe I'm coming down with something?? Maybe I haven't been getting enough rest this week...stress...stress...stress...woe is me.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

My honest suggestion?

Go back here & pay your Mom a visit, Angel...

Those are the very words of my Heart after reading your entry - that's my very own Heart's instinct - the presence of Our Mothers have the magic to calm us down no matter how difficult or tough the situation we get to be in... (". Should you stay, talk and confront to God, dear... You will find your peace eventually as I have just found mine. Just started with my baby steps again walking hand-in-hand with His guidance after I admitted Defeat to the World last week...

Living a Life always away from my Mom always got me scuttling around in the Dark on my own every time the World gnarled at me but yea, He is the only one I can go & talk to all the time. Always remember that He will never ever put one to test beyond his/her capability to endure it. When I can survive my own ordeal, you can do it too, Angel... Insya-Allah...

It is never a crime to admit defeat, mon cher... *hugs*... My prayers with you for your well-being...

Croft.

Anonymous said...

TOUCHE, mademoiselle Lara "T" Croft!

Yeah, Angel dude, you heard the inner voice of Croft tellin' ya to get your ass of the Fine City 'banana' republic and book yourself on the first flight home, man!

The Abode of Peace is where you belong, 0'Angel! Yup, Croft is right yet again about Heaven lies on your Mother's foot.. so just go back Home Sweet Home, man! C Ya!

Anonymous said...

PeaceLoveKindness... Monsieur? (",

It is lovely to finally bump into you again in here... What does the added initial "T" stand for in my alias, dear Sir?

It is a coincidental thing that Angel & I happen to share in common, us being independent Adults living all alone and so far away from Home all in the name of our job (but I preferably define "job" as my obligation to my Monarch & my Country rather than making my Life weighing all the more burdening having to always bear the fact in Mind that "One needs to work to eat", it kinda gives you the thought that you are "forced" to work in order to survive (which is partly true... Here goes my Mind with its endless Thoughts on this matter now *sighs* I'll save it up for my own piece later, Monsieur - with all due respects for Angel's territory here, hehe... (=",) So with the coincidence between Angel & I give me the kind of obligation to support a fellow kinsman who deals with the kind of job that sort of taken control over his Life inevitably.

For our Mothers, I have my highest respect - I am grateful to God that I have served my own Lady Mother well. But the most beautiful IRONY of it all - their presence & existence, regardless of just how "mature" & "grown" we've become to be nowadays, it is still her embrace & love & comfort that can chase all the troubles and predicament out off our Heart & Mind. Reading Angel's entry just now as I thought of my Mother gave me the flashback of memories from my childhood days, I saw myself shrinking back into this little girl who was crying on her lap, in her arms as she held me and kissed the top of my head again & again, comforting me with the most genuine of her Love... *sighs*... Got me missing my Lady Mother somehow now (".

Will be finding my time to stop by on your page again, Monseiur PeaceLoveKindness... Your presence makes a good conference buddy (", It is a great honour to be given the chance to cross paths with you.

A un autre fois.... A bientot.

Take care, Angel... Listen to your Heart this time, discard your Mind for once, ayte?

Croft.

Wonder Woman said...

there there dear angel... wonder woman is here to comfort angel with hugs.. angel know that wonder woman won't let angel down...

smile dear angel